Be There

My devotional this morning talked about taking more time with Jesus and not rushing through it. 

I have been so guilty of this. You see, for the past nine months my schedule for the most part every morning has been: wake up at 5:30, cook breakfast as fast as possible, scarf it down, quickly read through my devotional without thought or meditation, jump in the shower, put on some mascara, and finally rush off to school. Not really the most preparative or Christ-centered practice.

And I can honestly say that throughout that time I felt lost and disconnected from myself and my Lord. It was a sad feeling because it seemed like there was nothing I could do the reconnect since I was always busy and always tired. 

I knew what I needed to do, it was just a matter of having the time and energy to do it. And when I did finally make myself sit down and "spend time" with Jesus, it was always rushed and meaningless. I might as well not have even done it.

Several years ago, I had a solid routine that brought me closer to Jesus than I had ever been. I was serving in a leadership role for a Christian sorority I was a member of, and every morning I would get up, make my breakfast and coffee, and then sit down to spend a long time with the Lord. I mean, we are talking an hour or two. I had time to read my devotional, read my Bible, and then write in my journal and pray. I'm telling you, it was wonderful. I felt full of life and ready to take on the day every single morning. 

But man, what a luxury that was. I didn't realize until this year that spending time with God like that is pretty rare. When I think about it, I wonder just how many people are doing that. How many people are making that time where you can just BE with Jesus? Not just reading through a devotional or daily scripture to check it off your to-do list. But taking the time to talk and listen and just be. Maybe it's just me, but I like to think I'm not alone.

Luckily, I knew that there would be an end to that period of my life where I had no time or energy for my God. For the past two days, I have had the chance to actually sit and take my time with God. I've talked about lots of things and listened as well (that's why you're reading this blog post; He told me to do it!). And let me tell you, I'm feeling really good! I feel connected. I also feel like I am a lot more pleasant to be around and more connected to things happening around me. I have set a goal for myself to be more like when I was in college, spending hours in conversation and meditation with Jesus and finding ways to serve others.

So I want to challenge you to think about the time you are putting in with Jesus, your friend. Is it a couple of minutes reading through something? Or are you taking your time with him, without rushing? Do you need to reevaluate your schedule and your commitments?

Friends, this society we live in makes it so hard to be in the moment. Especially with Jesus, who we can't see with our eyes. We are surrounded by phones and constantly connected to people. We are addicted to scrolling through news feeds, things that we can see, which makes us completely neglect the time we should be spending with our Lord. And it's not just to make Him feel better. It will truly, honestly make you feel better too. 

Thanks for reading!